My name is Jessica Berson; you can find my previous life's website at I used to teach Dance Studies and write about embodiment and sexuality. I don't know what to call myself now or how to name what I'm doing. I'm not a cancer survivor, because I'm not going to survive. I'm not a warrior and I'm not a fighter. Cancer isn't an enemy; it's a tsunami, impersonal and implacable and unrelenting. I can't battle a Tsunami, just learn how to yield with the least pain. I'm still a spouse and a mom, and working on how to be those things while living with/dying from cancer.